Rock Bottom

So, this is rock bottom.
I've always done good in life, but never great. But lately things went from good to ok, then from ok to bad, and now from bad to terrible.
I weigh 240 lbs higher than I've ever wieghed. My birthday was last month, and only one person had time for me. I spent the whole day laying in bed crying over the fact I have no friends.
My grades from college came in, and I've failed the semester.
I have bills that need to be paid that I haven't.
I only brush my teeth every few days.
I shower at best twice a week.
All I wear anymore is sweats.
I got too lazy to even do my make up.
People at my job hate me.
My entire high school class has graduated college, while I still have 3 years left.
I am pathetic.

I have never won any awards in my life. I was always the overlooked one. I've never tried hard at anything. Every accomplishment of mine just kinda fell in my lap.

It's hit me that I need to change. I want to try hard at everything I do. I want to reach a state of excellence.
It starts with daily doing all I need to do.

What I need to do today:
Shower
Brush teeth
Wear make-up
Pay parking ticket.
Pay car mechanic
Pay library fine
Pay state fine
Go on a walk
Go to work and work hard
Upload assignments
Do corrections of homework
Read a book